"bemoanings" of singlehood

S: Your kid is already 7 years old! And you're so young..

R: Aiya.. Young meh? No lah..

Me: How old were you when you got married?

R: Now.. I'm 27..

Me: Waa! So young!!

+S gave Me a SHARP nudge+

Me: What am I doing here..(wails)

Actually I'm pretty young (that's what I choose to believe)
My colleagues call me the 'baby' because I'm the youngest. (I think I act like one sometimes..most of the time..?)

I love children.. In fact, right now, at this moment.. I'm thinking about my kids( I didn't give birth to them!)
Do you still remember..? My dream of a dozen? Haha.. I was inspired by this movie "Cheaper by the Dozen"
It was about this family who had 12 kids!! And their lifestyle is incredible. Seeing how mommy and daddy handle the squabbles...food..SPACE!! I was totally bowled over.

S: So.. when's your turn?

Me: Me?! Never.. I guess..(wails)

R: What sort are you looking for? Mickey mouse? Pooh Bear?

Me: Both!

R: Shrek la..

Me: Eeeee....

Seriously, I've given this some thought. I'm young.. Really young. Not just physically, but mentally as well.

Am I able to shoulder the responsibility of another person?

I'm not even financially stable...

Do I have what it takes to start a family? (opps.. I'm thinking too far)

Mommy's really pressurising me a lot.. Gee.. What am I supposed to do?
It's not like you can go to the market and haggle and take the best catch home.
Mom's deadline: End of 2006
I don't think so..(in fact it might be a never..)

Argh..!!! I don't need this to drive me nuts. I'm already pretty nutty myself..

...when I do grow up, it might finally be my turn...

ARGH!!!

Limitations?!

Limitations..

Ain't that word frightening?

It stunts growth.

Kills ideas.

Causes retardation.

Now, it's frightening.

Haha.. (scream!!)

I work with kids, mix around with them more than 12 hours everyday(weekdays)!!
Kids are amazing. You know, a little encouragement goes a looooooooonng way for them.

Kids don't find it hard to believe.. they believe whatever dreams that you present. It's do-a-ble!

Now..what about me?

I went through a pretty rigorous education system.. I fought the battle of books!! examinations!! I have my battle scars to show. It was supposed to toughen me up!

But.. my heart was filled with limitations.. boundaries..

Isn't it always so often to hear
"DON'T do that! You'll hurt yourself!"
"DON'T do this! You're gonna get into trouble."
I hear so many DON'Ts..

These DON'Ts..they form the boundaries that we aren't supposed to cross. (hmm..supposed?)

I want to be a kid again! Impossibilities shouldn't exist!

So.. next time..

When you see a kid, DO encourage the little child and say,"You can DO it!"

Panic attacks!?

Ever wondered what life was like before mobile phones invaded planet Earth?

Below is an adaptation of a conversation I had today.

R: Oh no.. My handphone no batt..

J: It's okie, I'll lend you mine.

Exchange of phones. R left.

For the next few hours(approximately 6 hours).. It felt like bliss at first, then anxiety started to set in.

Symptons:
+sweaty palms
+incoherent thoughts
+unable to concentrate
+constant worrying

I can't believe it, I had my mommy's phone with me. I felt uneasy just because I didn't have my own phone. The familarity of using that model..

Ponder..ponder...ponder..

Many a times, I'm dwelling in familarity. Once in a while.. I'll stick my head out of my shell
(and perhaps do something different)

During service last night, Pastor preached about being a LINE-crosser!!

We're called to cross over all kinds of barriers..

The shortest route to being accepted in a crowd is conformity(but that's hardly exciting at all!)
Take a swimming pool for example. The shallow end is where we'd find the crowd(young..old..small..huge..)

Why?

The shallow end is designed for low risk. For those who want to play it safe.

Now.. The deep end is designed for HIGH risk. You won't find many people there. It's easy to get hurt there...It's where ALL the FUN is!!

There are 5 lines to cross..
+The line of the UNKNOWN
Sometimes if you're not willing to try the ridiculous, you'll not experience the miraculous!

+The line of COMFORT
You won't give up your present until you've seen a GREATER future!

+The line of the IMPOSSIBLE
"God delights in impossibility"-Charles Spurgeon

+The line of POSITIVE AFFIRMATION
Often.. there'd be more negative than positive remarks.. when we've decided to cross the line.

+The line of the PULL OF THE WORLD
Your faith will make their fears obvious.
The further you cross, the weaker the pull of the world!

An excitinig new world awaits.. Be a line crosser!!

Hehe.. That was my line of comfort earlier in the day :D

JOY-giver

Have you ever had a friend who'd make you smile everytime you meet?

Especially those times when you find it so hard to do just that.

It's amazing what a little gesture can do to make a person's day.

Yea.. I'm still thinking of the lost child.. but I thank God that I've found a joy giver.

I finally laughed! Felt so much lighter..

Thank you Joy-giver.. it's infectious!

A Lost Child

Kids.. they are my passion and joy.

Today, I totally lost it. I broke down while lecturing a kid.
Does he understand? Felt so helpless.. seeing him going down to the pits.
He is a talent, everything a parent could dream of.. until dad passed away..

He changed, took a turn for the worse...

After months of ignoring.. scolding.. counselling..
I burst!

I scolded him, asked him why?

How could I help you?

Can you confide in me?

Can I be your friend?

I couldn't bring myself to speak to him. There was nothing I could do to help.

Who'd see those tears?

I did it!!

Finally figured out how to use this blogskin...

Welcome to Joy's world!!!

Joy To The World!!!

*applause*

Let me sing you a song..

J-O-Y!! J-O-Y!!

Jokety Oinkety Yea!

Jokety Oinkety Yippety Yea!

J-O-Y!!