Falling below your expectations

I'm sorry.
I'm not the perfect daughter that you've always wanted.
Your life was never perfect to begin with.
I know you've pinned your hopes on me, that one day, I'll fulfill it.

I'm scared to tell you of my dreams.
I know you'd never approve.
At this age now.. it's already too late.

From the very beginning..
It was never a yes.
You mocked at what I believe because of what others have done to you.

I'm really not perfect..
I know I haven't tried my best.
I see your sacrifices,
And I wonder..
Am I worthy of them all?

Comparisons, comparisons, comparisons.
I don't like it.
It's stressful.
I'm not the same as anyone else.
I want to start afresh.
Will you still give me a chance...

I love you mom.
I really do.